My thoughts on Prayer

I always have a difficult time praying. I always here God speaking to me through His Word or other people. I can read scripture all day. I can sing and dance to worship music.   I usually never hear from God during prayer. Or at least I don’t think I do. I don’t like to blame this on God. It could just be I am not listening. However, I want to share my raw feelings with you all. I want to open to up about my prayer life. I get so frustrated that I don’t hear from God or feel His presence during prayer that I hardly ever pray.  I am not saying God never answers my prayers. But often times I don’t feel like we are spending time together. I often don’t feel like  the Holy Spirit is present. Of course I know that is not true. But I don’t feel God’s presence when I pray or hear from God like most people do. When I pray to God it often feels like I am talking to a brick wall. I crave the intimacy of prayer. I will continue to make efforts to breathe a prayer every now and then. I don’t want praying to feel like a job I don’t like. I want prayer to be like having a two way conversation with God. I still am a LITTLE hopeful about prayer. But I want to love praying to God more.