Dear sixteen year old Megan (Blog-tember Challenge) ( National Suicide Prevention Week)

Write a letter to sixteen-year-old you. Any advice or funny stories?

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Hello darling,

I hope you are doing well. I know 16 is an exciting time for you. You finally to get to drive. You feel more independent which you always wanted. You love it. But High School is rough. I know how difficult it is for you. I just want you to know that you are treasured. You are worthy. You have value. You are love. God is near. I promise He is near even when it doesn’t feel like it. Your hard work will pay off. Those nights you put in studying are worth it. But please don’t place your value on your grades. Whether you get a C or an A your value doesn’t decrease any as long as you are working hard. High school is lonely. Church is lonely. That doesn’t change much as you get older. Life is lonely. Just try to remain whole. Read verses out loud that talk about God’s love for you. You need to believe it. Oh I am certain you need it believe more than most people. You have been hurt a lot and that won’t change when you get older. But if you know who you are in Christ you won’t be shaken. You will never defeated. Just know you are His beloved. Spend time in the Word as often as you can. Make it a discipline.  Starting eating healthier. Go to a gym. You will back out of doing a weight loss program because the person in charge smokes and you think that is hypocritical. But don’t be critical of adults either. When you are one you will realize they just have as a many issues as you. Give them grace. Give yourself grace.  Breathe a prayer every morning. Brush your teeth. Wash your hands. Realize humans beings are messy. They do cruel things. Love them anyways. Don’t let their negative words define you. If thats one thing I learned about you its that you let what people say define you. Please don’t do that. It causes severe damage to you now and to your future self. You will push away good people because you will learn to build up walls. Don’t walk  in this world as a walking apology. You don’t need to do that. You belong on this earth as much as anyone else. Make sure to be your own cheerleader. Please stop being your worse critic. It has never done you any good. Both you and I know that. Go to counseling. Make sure you “date” your counselors. This means that you make sure you don’t just settle for any counselor. Find one that is meant for you or it will cause you much more damage in life. But don’t give up either. There is a counselor for you. There are people in your life who love you. Even though you don’t believe it most of the time. I wish you would laugh more. I don’t like when you are cry. But when you are sad make sure you lean on God. He is there even though it doesn’t seem like it. He can and will carry the burden for you if you let Him. If you are angry at God don’t stop talking to Him. Express to Him how you feel. You don’t have to keep quiet. God wants to hear how you feel. Be in communion with the Creator always. Let the Holy Spirit guide your life. You are a broken person. You are surrounded by broken people. Ignore those hurtful things they say. It is not personal. I don’t why they take it out on you. You don’t deserve it. But please be strong. Choose to love people in their brokeness as Christ loves you in yours. Do what you can. You are enough. Serve where you are. Love the people around you. That is mission work in your own home town. But love yourself too. That is also mission work. Have a good one. I am sorry I always beaten you down with horrible words. I wish I spoke to you more tenderly. You deserve nothing less.

Love always, your 24 year old self

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Dear Scarlett Johansson

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I never have been good with words even though I am known to slip the words ” I am sorry” 7-10 times a day. However with real apologies I have never been good. I used to not like you. I used to think you were just another sex idol. I saw myself as a missionary girl who was “on fire” for Jesus. However, in my eyes you were just some celebrity who cared about herself. Whenever I first heard your name I thought you were Scarlett O’Hara the girl from “Gone with the Wind”. When  I saw you I changed my mind quick.  I was hoping guys would be crushing over an old fashioned classy chic not some blonde hair blued eyed babe. However, I realized I was seeing you how I wanted to perceive you. I realize now a few things.  First you are the most the most elegant and classy girl  I have ever seen. You are also so very human. So am I. You loved your mom but was sad that she was crying when you lost your virginity at 17. You swore you fell in love for the first time at 14. You swoon over boys the way all of us girls do. However you are so very reserved. It is actually shocking you play roles that involve so much sexuality. Although you are extremely appealing I know you don’t like being the center of attention. You prefer close friends. You don’t want your dating life out there for the world to know. You have this way of drawing guys to you but special guys. Guys who are really attracted to you are attracted to your soul first I can tell. This interview I saw the other day broke my heart. Guys were saying that your boobs were to saggy. They said you look too old. It broke my heart because it is the same things I hear every day. You and I we are so different. I am a Republican and you are a Liberal. (By the was I am very sorry obama did not want your help in campaigning). Yet we are both introverted, we both are reserved and a mystery to a world, we both will still dress vintage despite the critics, and we both will keep pouring our heart and love into the people closes to us. We want our privacy but we share we those we love. We hate our nicknames. Mine is Meg and yours is ScarJo. I just wanted you to know you are beloved. You are treasured and valued.  I would do anything for you to be seen. I hope you keep your head up. Most likely we will never cross path. Oh but I would love if we do. I would appreciate taking you out on my favorite thing I like to call coffee dates with strangers. I would get to know you for who you truly are. I would tell you that you are complete. It is okay to want people in your life but please do not beg them to stay. You are beloved. You matter. You have a purpose. You are here to breathe a little life into this broken world.  I am here to cheer you on. I will be your support.

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